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I still plan on posting my Emotional Awareness plan, but the short version is that February is devoted to coping skills. I have a few lists from ysabetwordsmith to go through and hunt for skills I can learn/use/apply in ways I hadn't thought of before. I'm not feeling any motivation right now, but maybe a should take a look at them because I could use them right now.

The problem with that is I don't know if there is a method that will solve my problem, or even improve it much. I am very much a "follow" person, rather than a "leader", as long as I have a competent, decent person to follow. And I don't have that right now, in any aspect of my life. Making all the decisions myself is hard, so is follow-through on a decision when I have no one encouraging me to do it, or saying nice things when I finish whatever it is I have to do.

I can be an adult, and I can make the decisions and get things done but fuck sometimes I just want it to be someone else's job.

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*hugs* Thank you. I started copying down a list of coping skills, and I'm going to try to group some by purpose, so I don't end up with 80 distractions but no really way to handle anger or frustration. Writing it down helped, so maybe making lists should be one of my coping skills XD