Weekly Update
Mar. 11th, 2021 08:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fuzzyredWell, I got all the daily stuff done this week, with the exception of skipping, because I went for a long walk in the park. I started a blanket for my nieces, but it's going to be a bit of a bear to knit, because the yarn is stringy-fluffy, so telling stitches apart gets kind of tricky. I also have a knitted twist headband to make for my cousin, but I haven't started that yet.
If this weekend is nice, I might try to get out into the garden and clear up some of the dead things. I also want to try to get some entries done this weekend since I'm building up a backlog of work. I've also had a bit of a revelation recently, but it's a little personal so that will be behind the cut.
I think I know how sexuals feel now. Personally, I don't think I've ever had a craving for sex or orgasms the way most people do. Sometimes I feel a desire for it, and sometimes my body seems to crave penetration, but so far all my needs are things I've been able to satisfy by myself and I honestly solo might work better for me than a partner. I like cuddles, and another person is fun, but there are a lot more pit falls to deal with when I involve a partner.
On the other hand, I'm very much a kinky person and the submissive desires make themselves known a lot more. I like impact play and bondage is awesome but I reeeaaallllllyyyyyy like being told what to do and being able to kneel for someone. With covid and not having a steady partner, I haven't been able to satisfy that need in any way really, and my brain keeps coming back to it, saying "I want this thing." So, I have a little more understand of sexual people now (I think) since I've heard a lot of people complaining that solo isn't the same as having a partner and lamenting the lack of one. I still don't feel the need for a sexual partner, but damn it, I really want a Dom-y kinky partner.
If this weekend is nice, I might try to get out into the garden and clear up some of the dead things. I also want to try to get some entries done this weekend since I'm building up a backlog of work. I've also had a bit of a revelation recently, but it's a little personal so that will be behind the cut.
I think I know how sexuals feel now. Personally, I don't think I've ever had a craving for sex or orgasms the way most people do. Sometimes I feel a desire for it, and sometimes my body seems to crave penetration, but so far all my needs are things I've been able to satisfy by myself and I honestly solo might work better for me than a partner. I like cuddles, and another person is fun, but there are a lot more pit falls to deal with when I involve a partner.
On the other hand, I'm very much a kinky person and the submissive desires make themselves known a lot more. I like impact play and bondage is awesome but I reeeaaallllllyyyyyy like being told what to do and being able to kneel for someone. With covid and not having a steady partner, I haven't been able to satisfy that need in any way really, and my brain keeps coming back to it, saying "I want this thing." So, I have a little more understand of sexual people now (I think) since I've heard a lot of people complaining that solo isn't the same as having a partner and lamenting the lack of one. I still don't feel the need for a sexual partner, but damn it, I really want a Dom-y kinky partner.
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Date: 2021-03-12 05:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-03-15 11:56 pm (UTC)I did see a friend over the weekend, so that was really nice, and helped fill in a few of the gaps I've been feeling lately.