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Update and New Year's Goals Review
Dec. 30th, 2021 04:57 pmThis one has been a rather lazy week, but I finally managed to get some stuff done yesterday and today. The holidays went really well, had a great time with family, although there were a few moments of overwhelm that happened. Luckily nothing that wrecked my composure completely, but I was definitely ready for some alone time when it finally came.
I do still have my daily streak going, but with a little bit of creativeness required. There were three things I missed on the day they were supposed to happen, but I did manage to make them all up yesterday, so I'm going to count them for the purpose of gaining stickers and completing tasks, since this was a holiday week and all. Also, with the number of times I've missed a task before and not even tried to make up for it, actually doing the ones I missed counts for something in my opinion.
I go back to work on Monday and I'm not really sure what I have planned between now and then, but I do want to make a new list of new year's goals, and I need to write up my post for the Rose & Bay Awards; I agreed to host a category this time around. I'll be on afternoons the first week back and I'm still sad that my closest coworker won't be in my group, but due to some switching I will seem him at least a few weeks during this rotation. I know it's not a huge deal in the grand scheme of things, and it's hard to classify our relationship, but he feels a lot like a best friend and not getting to see him at all (after 6 months of seeing each other every shift) is going to suck.
****WARNING: Mini-rant****
Work is alright, but the best parts come from my coworkers, not my managers or the work itself, so when our group got split up it was extra shitty. We were previously in 3 groups and in addition to my favourite coworker, I liked everyone in my group and we worked well together. We went above and beyond to make sure everything ran smoothly because we liked and respected each other, not because we necessarily care about management or overall productivity. We all want to have a smooth easy day with as little frustration as possible, and when you have a good group, helping each other out so that *everyone* has a good day is easy. But in the way that management so often works, when they decided to go 2 weeks days, 2 weeks afternoons, they made 2 large groups instead of 3. And instead of splitting up the one group who would have been happy with that, they split up the "best" group in order to spread us out and hope we improve the other employees performances (this is not just arrogance on my part, I actually had a manager tell me this almost verbatim). Which, I sort of get it, but really, all they did was upset their best workers and disturb the best dynamic they had going. Part of the reason, personally, that I work the way I do is because I like the people I work with. Now, some of this is inherent to me and will show its head even if I am around neutral or mildly disliked coworkers, but it is so much better if I'm with positive coworkers. Everyone has a breaking point, and when you take away the caring and moral support from the coworkers without having the same available from your managers, there will be a decline in attitude and performance.
Now, I do have coworkers in my new group I like, and I'm sure the hurt will fade in time, but the fact that it's there at all sucks. And it means in the meantime I will be less likely to go the extra mile, and I'll have less flexibility and tolerance for managerial bullshit. I know the move wasn't made with the intention of splitting up my favourite coworker and I, but they did, and now the biggest part of my coping methods is gone and I will be so much less forgiving with management's bull. I know, I know, "maturity" and "self-reliance" and "understanding." And maybe I'll be able to do that in a few weeks or a few months, but for now, I'm upset and pissed and *angry*. I don't want to be lenient, I don't want to play nice and I don't care if it looks strange or odd because I'm so upset about not seeing my married, male coworker any more.
*deep breath* Oops, sorry for the rant. I really didn't mean to do that, but it just... It's been bugging me I guess, for a few more reasons than I stated above. And now,
***end rant***
Behind the cut, my review of my 2021 New Year's Goals.
( Review of the long list of 2021 Goals )
All in all, I feel like I did both more and less of my goals than expected, and I'm going to have to give consideration to what I do next year. I did find some things that work well for me though, so I'm very glad for those discoveries. It's all about trial and error and the learning process, right?
I hope everyone has a fabulous year end, and a 2022 that is far better than this year has been. Love and hugs to all!
I do still have my daily streak going, but with a little bit of creativeness required. There were three things I missed on the day they were supposed to happen, but I did manage to make them all up yesterday, so I'm going to count them for the purpose of gaining stickers and completing tasks, since this was a holiday week and all. Also, with the number of times I've missed a task before and not even tried to make up for it, actually doing the ones I missed counts for something in my opinion.
I go back to work on Monday and I'm not really sure what I have planned between now and then, but I do want to make a new list of new year's goals, and I need to write up my post for the Rose & Bay Awards; I agreed to host a category this time around. I'll be on afternoons the first week back and I'm still sad that my closest coworker won't be in my group, but due to some switching I will seem him at least a few weeks during this rotation. I know it's not a huge deal in the grand scheme of things, and it's hard to classify our relationship, but he feels a lot like a best friend and not getting to see him at all (after 6 months of seeing each other every shift) is going to suck.
****WARNING: Mini-rant****
Work is alright, but the best parts come from my coworkers, not my managers or the work itself, so when our group got split up it was extra shitty. We were previously in 3 groups and in addition to my favourite coworker, I liked everyone in my group and we worked well together. We went above and beyond to make sure everything ran smoothly because we liked and respected each other, not because we necessarily care about management or overall productivity. We all want to have a smooth easy day with as little frustration as possible, and when you have a good group, helping each other out so that *everyone* has a good day is easy. But in the way that management so often works, when they decided to go 2 weeks days, 2 weeks afternoons, they made 2 large groups instead of 3. And instead of splitting up the one group who would have been happy with that, they split up the "best" group in order to spread us out and hope we improve the other employees performances (this is not just arrogance on my part, I actually had a manager tell me this almost verbatim). Which, I sort of get it, but really, all they did was upset their best workers and disturb the best dynamic they had going. Part of the reason, personally, that I work the way I do is because I like the people I work with. Now, some of this is inherent to me and will show its head even if I am around neutral or mildly disliked coworkers, but it is so much better if I'm with positive coworkers. Everyone has a breaking point, and when you take away the caring and moral support from the coworkers without having the same available from your managers, there will be a decline in attitude and performance.
Now, I do have coworkers in my new group I like, and I'm sure the hurt will fade in time, but the fact that it's there at all sucks. And it means in the meantime I will be less likely to go the extra mile, and I'll have less flexibility and tolerance for managerial bullshit. I know the move wasn't made with the intention of splitting up my favourite coworker and I, but they did, and now the biggest part of my coping methods is gone and I will be so much less forgiving with management's bull. I know, I know, "maturity" and "self-reliance" and "understanding." And maybe I'll be able to do that in a few weeks or a few months, but for now, I'm upset and pissed and *angry*. I don't want to be lenient, I don't want to play nice and I don't care if it looks strange or odd because I'm so upset about not seeing my married, male coworker any more.
*deep breath* Oops, sorry for the rant. I really didn't mean to do that, but it just... It's been bugging me I guess, for a few more reasons than I stated above. And now,
***end rant***
Behind the cut, my review of my 2021 New Year's Goals.
( Review of the long list of 2021 Goals )
All in all, I feel like I did both more and less of my goals than expected, and I'm going to have to give consideration to what I do next year. I did find some things that work well for me though, so I'm very glad for those discoveries. It's all about trial and error and the learning process, right?
I hope everyone has a fabulous year end, and a 2022 that is far better than this year has been. Love and hugs to all!
